Entry 22 – Day 139

Entry 22 – Day 139

Balthandar had to cut off his head to break the spell. Even now I have to squint to focus on the page as I write.

My mind… nothing like that has happened to me in so long. We must escape this place before the fumes from the trees overwhelm us. I have no time to write, but I must put something to paper. If for no other reason than to prove I am sane.


It is done. Our task for Bantish is complete, but at no small cost.

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Entry 23 – Day 140

Entry 23 – Day 140

We had to stop to rest, there was no pushing farther today. Most of the night was spent escaping the toxic forest, and now that we have made our way out we must stop. We won’t make it back to Bantish’s village tonight.

I never thought I would crave the presence of such poor savages as badly as I do right now. At least we would be able to sleep among them.

The Mentalists’ encampment was close to where we camped the other night, so close that in the morning Dionus was awoken by their arousal. They were perhaps only a hundred feet away.

Their encampment was smaller than I expected, perhaps only fifty yards in any direction. Most of the buildings were low, rudimentary things made from branches and vines.

There were a few built up on the trunks of the trees with stairways leading up to them. There was even a bridge fashioned from ropes that spanned the gap between the largest of these. The encampment itself was tranquil in the early morning. The monsters were nowhere to be seen, but there were a number of men and women mulling about the site.

Most of them were Organists, those capable of manipulating plant life. At first this was a shock, finding natural enemies like Organists and Mentalists working together, and this is where things took strange turns.

There were only two Mentalists, but they were in the most dangerous combination they come in: one controlled by the other.


Mentalism plays on the perceptions and volition of the victim, from mere suggestion to outright hallucination. The danger for the Mentalist lies in the fact that the more he pushes the will of others, the more the integrity of his own deteriorates. Eventually he is left to a well-deserved fate, powerless against the suggestion of others.

I’m sure you know this. What’s more dangerous, however, is when one Mentalist is left open to such suggestion and he becomes the tool of another. This leaves the controlling Mentalist free to use his power at will, while avoiding the dangers of exerting it all the time. The controlled Mentalist becomes his ultimate weapon, an inexhaustible exertion of his will over others.

Thus the Organists were made to be slaves to the one, and the one became the slave to the other.

The Organists were being put to work, it appeared, in order to form the disease we saw in the trees. They were being forced to create a corruption, for what purpose I remain uncertain. What follows is still hazy for me, but it has come back in pieces over the last day.


Starlark broke off from the group to scout the perimeter, while the rest of us remained hidden and observed what I have already written. He did not return.

We waited for over an hour for him, ample time to circumvent the camp. We decided to move and enter the encampment after surrounding it. But as we stood, the camp disappeared.

I walked forward, confused as if I had been struck blind. Before me stood nothing but trees and vines. I could still see my comrades, who were as confused as I, but the camp was gone.

Balthandar, among all of us, was the only one to keep his gaze set forward. He was locked on a particular spot. As I watched, he walked forward until he reached the largest tree before us and crossed his legs to sit. He put his massive spear across his lap. I could swear the tree shifted slightly to accommodate him.

Bolton was sneering, breathing heavily, and beginning to swear loudly. No matter what Dionus or I said, we could not stop him from getting angrier with every passing moment. He was terrified.

Dionus and I were aware of the hallucination, but neither of us knew how to break it. Mentalism and Organics are diametrically opposed, the key to breaking the spell on us would lie in the plants around us but they were poisoned. There was no help to draw from the trees, and no knowing for certain which were real in any case.

It is disorienting to realize you are dreaming yet be unable to wake. Which trees were there before the dream began? Which appeared thereafter?

I began to panic. We were in a prison we could not touch, behind bars we could not break. I would have spoken to Dionus but he put a finger to his lips. There was no telling who was near nor what they had in store for us. They made no move to harm us, which meant they would try to find a way and break us.

“Dionus,” Balthandar said suddenly. “Come stand by me.”

Dionus nodded to me quietly and stepped up behind the seated Islander. I took this as my cue to wait as well, but before I could sit I needed Bolton to calm down. He was starting to shout even louder. He took out his sword and began to hack at the nearest trees.

I couldn’t get him to stop, and before I knew it he had inhaled too much of the fumes and collapsed under one of his intended victims. I held my breath as I dragged him back towards the others, and then sat to watch over him. He was still breathing, though shallowly.

Balthandar’s eyes were closed. I assumed he was meditating, using some southern trick to calm his mind. But Dionus’ eyes were roving. I could sense him reaching out, testing the air as subtly as he could.

We waited for hours. I had yet to sit still for so long in the half-light of the jungle, but the way that it shifted was unnerving. Perhaps that was only a part of the illusion. I lost all track of time.


The silence was chilling. The scent of death intensified. Then Dionus clapped flint against Bantish’s bamboo. The whole world twisted sideways in that moment as the illusion was skewed.

The wind cracked as Dionus brought his hands up, and in a flash Balthandar’s spear shot up and into the tree before him. Blood spurt from the tree, and it began to shiver.

In that instant a stinging pain erupted behind my eyes. All I could hear was a steady ringing. Dionus and I covered our ears as Balthandar leapt to his feet and rammed his spear through the tree. The world quaked as more blood ran down its trunk. And then it fell.

Everything began to vibrate and spin. All three of us dropped to our hands and knees, clinging to the earth as if it might fling us from its surface. The Seventh Death hovered near, I could sense him closing in. It seemed to be the only way out. He was beckoning me to choose him, and then I realized what had happened.

“You can stop now!” I shouted through gritted teeth. It was all I could think to do. “Release your prisoners!”

And like that, the world stood still. The camp was around us, the corpse of the Mentalist lying at its center. Above us stood another, waiting obediently for his next instructions. Balthandar lunged to cut him down but I stopped him.

This Mentalist was harmless without his master, the death of whom had sent him into an unguided spiral until I called out to him. Had I not, it is likely we would have soon chosen the Seventh out of sheer terror. Assuming our hearts didn’t give out first.

The Organists awoke from their own prisons as well. Their shock at the horrors they had wrought was almost comical. Thankfully they knew exactly what they needed to do to treat Bolton. In the meantime we asked the surviving Mentalist our most burning questions.

It was he who had been able to master the beasts in the jungle. Their minds, he said, were not so different from those of men, even more pliable and easy to manipulate. The flint on bamboo, he said, disrupted his hold on them momentarily. They were also more difficult to influence the farther out they went, and were thus more unpredictable.

As for the toxins in the trees, he had no answers. He said it was being refined for some war in the north, and that its final composition had been smuggled out by a third Mentalist the day before. What purpose something like this could serve was beyond him. He simply guided the Organists into believing they were creating a cure, and then used their skills to do just the opposite.


Eventually Starlark wandered back into the camp, even more disoriented than the rest. He had been about to put arrows in the Mentalists’ backs when the trap was sprung.

Both of them were Imperial. The survivor grew up in the capital, but he couldn’t say where his companion was from. He said they were sent here, but by whom and to what ends he did not know. Truly unwitting, through and through.

In the end, we decided to leave him in the hands of the Organists he had enslaved. The enmity between the two expressions was strong before, but for these poor savages it is only all the more real now.

He may have been little more than a tool, but he deserves the fate that awaits him at their hands. I searched both the corpse and the survivor before we handed him over. All I found was this key. The markings on it are strange. It is not of Imperial make, at least I have never seen a lock to which something like this might fit.


As for us, now that we have left the weeping trees behind we will rest for the evening. In the morning we will return to Bantish’s village. Bolton is still not quite right, but he can walk. I still find myself disoriented and uncertain if I can trust my senses.

Illusory Hypnosis, that’s what they call it. It feels like my very mind has been violated. I doubt I will sleep well tonight.

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Entry 24 – Day 141

Entry 24 – Day 141

Gratitude should taste better. I have not often risked my life for the lives of others, but on the occasions where I have the thanks has always been more generous. Balthandar swore his life to me, for gods’ sake. Bantish and his people can barely put together a decent meal for us.


I suppose that for such poor people I should be grateful there is any food at all. But considering we have alleviated not just suffering, but a threat to their very existence, you would imagine they would produce more of a feast.

They fed us some fruit and a couple of roasted birds served over a thick puree of some root I have never tasted before. It was all terrible. Bland.

The people looked expectant, as if we were supposed to enjoy it. I suppose we did in some fashion, considering we hadn’t eaten more than flatbake in two days. I’m sure they were disappointed at our reaction. I suppose the next time someone saves their village they’ll put on a better show.

There was no bandying about for us. As soon as we had eaten the questions began to flow, pumping Bantish for whatever information he would give us.

We need to be on our way. That was what we tried to impress upon him.

He, on the other hand, wanted us to stay. At least a little longer. He put up a show of wanting to give us time to rest, and for him to gather supplies. Bolton took this as a stalling tactic. He stood, knife in hand, but Bantish thrust him back down to his seat with a gesture. The shock of it stunned Bolton, it stunned all of us.

I don’t know what power he used, but all of our hands were on our blades in an instant.

Bantish kept two fingers raised and asked us to remain civil. He promised we would have all that we had asked for and more, but told us that rest was what we needed most. Pointing at Bolton, who flinched noticeably, Bantish said that there was illness yet within us. It would be no form of appreciation to let us back into the wild without giving us the best chance possible.

He almost made it sound hopeful.

Bolton is still angry from his embarrassment. He and Starlark haven’t stopped bickering since. The rest of us are quietly grateful for the opportunity to rest, even if we share frustrations over Bantish.


I knew he was powerful. I knew he was dangerous. Now I must trust that he is as honorable as he appears.

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Entry 25 – Day 142

Entry 25 – Day 142

Bolton truly is sicker than we thought. It is midday and he has yet to rise from the cot that was made for him. He shakes and sweats, but does not awake.

Bantish assures us the fever will pass but I am not so sure. He frequently burns some strange concoction of leaves and incense next to Bolton’s contorted form. To open his airways, Bantish says. To let in the healing.

The rest of us spend our time attending to our gear, much of it oiling our blades. I’m not sure if they truly need it, or the ritual has simply become one of the few links to lives we once led. A strange form of catharsis. It’s easy to pretend you’re anywhere you wish as you stare into shimmering steel.

Isn’t this exactly what I was craving when sleeping out in the wilderness only days before?

If nothing else we can get some sleep without keeping as stringent a watch, and that in itself is a blessing. Now if only we could get a decent meal.


I find myself fantasizing about food, especially as our flatbake runs desperately low. Idleness has given my stomach too great a voice. And beer. Gods I would kill for a stout or even one of Handel’s amber ales. I knew leaving civilization would be hard. I never knew it would be the hunger that would be the hardest.

Everywhere in the Old Empire there are taverns, inns. People have food. There is always somewhere to eat. Even on long treks into the mountains we only went without a hot meal for a week at most. We are discovering that here, in the Nanten, if you can’t scavenge or hunt you will starve.


To that end, Bantish has promised to begin teaching us the plant life of the area. What is edible and what is poisonous. I am able now to appreciate just how valuable such knowledge will be. Having found and befriended him will prove to be well worth our effort.

I feel reluctant to move on with our mission today. My exhaustion is lending great clout to the overwhelming nature of the undertaking. To find Brin Salisir in this jungle? We have barely crossed its borders and already we are shaken.

On the road to Blithe I was angry and fueled by it. I had notions of sweeping through this jungle, finding Salisir’s corpse, and then finishing his mission for him. I would return to the Tetrarch and reclaim my place. And all of this would be done within the year.


Now, as I pray for the slightest of breezes to pass me by, I am plagued by doubts. This jungle is dense. The creatures that inhabit it are lethal. The discovery of Imperial Mentalists carrying out experiments with Nantese Organists leaves me disturbed to no end. What else awaits within the Nanten?

We will not starve, and we will not die of thirst. I am growing certain of that. What I am not certain of is whether we will die of fever, poison, or blades in the night. What other monsters await us?

And then there is the strife between Bolton and Starlark. It is a morbid kindness to have a day’s relief from their bickering as Bolton lies ill. I must figure out a solution to their enmity before they solve it themselves.

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Entry 26 – Day 142

Entry 26 – Day 142

Continued from Entry 25

I have never been as glad for an education as I am tonight. We’ve learned so much.

The snake that bit Balthandar’s boot, for example, is simply known as a firesnake. The name is fitting as its venom burns whatever it comes into contact with. Apparently if said venom gets into the blood stream it will cauterize the veins as it travels towards the heart, which can kill the bitten appendage rapidly.


Odds are strong that it will either turn the limb black, or kill the person outright, whether or not the venom makes it all the way to the heart. For this there is no cure, unless a Sympathetic Healer happens to be nearby.

There are so many unique plants here, I would have had no idea which were safe to eat and which were poisonous if it were not for Bantish.

He showed us a number of different roots and small flowers which I had barely noticed along our journey thus far. Most that I would have assumed were safe were quite the opposite, and many that look frightful to eat appear to be the most nutritious.

Before I forget, I must draw a few here for future reference.

These flowers have various poisonous properties, as marked. Strangely it is some of the prettier flowers that prove the most dangerous, as with the Pondsweed.

These look similar, but are quite safe to eat and hold various nutrients. The difference lies in how the stems split, and the shapes of the leaves.


The most impressive plant he showed us was a small tree that grows no taller than waist-high. The Martingue. Every part of this plant contains different nutrients, and its stems are as satisfying to eat as flatbake.

Bantish claims it is the most valuable plant in the jungle, and by far the most nutritious. Whenever they find one they nurture it to maturity and then use its leaves in as much of their food as possible. If there is any illness in the village, they harvest it from leaf to root, and consume it all. The roots in particular, he tells us, are invaluable for curing illness.


To demonstrate, he gave Bolton a broth made from Martingue root. Bolton’s fever lifted in minutes, and he was awake within the hour.

The plant is rare. Any time we find it, I have instructed the others to harvest and pack it along.

This evening was encouraging. I certainly feel less like we will starve in the jungles of the Nanten now.

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Entry 27 – Day 143

Entry 27 – Day 143

We are still waiting for Bolton to recover, but to be honest the rest of us need the respite as well. Bantish has already gathered more supplies than I would have guessed possible. He has promised to teach us more about those items, along with more lessons of the jungle tonight. His manner is steady, sage. It is hard to resist trusting the little savage.

I am getting anxious to continue our mission. I plan to ask Bantish more about Salisir tonight. He knows the name, and I hope that he points us in the right direction. He watches us closely, and though he never appears hostile I can sense that he is always ready for confrontation. I look forward to leaving his unyielding stare behind.

In the meantime I will insert some more of my notes tonight.

-Salisir and the Scourge-

It doesn’t matter how high you rise as a hero. It only takes one catastrophic fall to be remembered as anything else.

Brin Salisir was just such a dying star, destined to burn before he had ever fully risen.  His voyage over the Highridge Mountains was long in coming. For though the Tetrarch recruited him he was not allowed to make the trek without their blessing. He first had to become a member of the order.

I realize you aren’t familiar with what all this entails, so I’ll do my best to summarize what I am at liberty to share. The seven year training period has no formal name beyond “the School,” although its participants have given it many names. We knew it as the Scourge. It remains an accurate portrayal to this day.

Salisir was one of the oldest people to enter the Scourge, as most raised within the Tetrarch begin it at age twelve. This is their final indoctrination into discipline. Salisir was nearly twice the age of his classmates.


He had little mind for discipline, and less for authority. He had been tolerated in the ranks of the Chaplaincy only for his proficiency in finding and releasing Daedra. He would not be tolerated by the Tetrarch, not in how he carried himself at that point. They would try to break him.

It is debated to this day who broke who, but I tend to think that they reached some sort of shattered stalemate.

The first year of the Scourge is the worst. Not because it is the most physically trying, or the most dangerous, but because it is the year you lose yourself.

From sleep deprivation to absolute physical exhaustion, you are beaten and you are driven until you begin to forget who you are. Whether it’s through drills, or the endless recitation of oaths and creeds, your mind is steadily wiped clean. Then you are tested, and wiped again.

Salisir would not break.

This is known beyond the reaches of his school simply because it is otherwise unheard of. Rather than break, Salisir became more resilient. Harder. Members of the Tetrarch still use him as a gauge of stubbornness to this day.

There came a point at which his instructors resigned themselves to let him persist in his free mind, so long as he didn’t disrupt the training of the rest. They needed him, and they knew it, but they resented him for it.

Salisir resented them yet more.

The seven years of the Scourge carried on much as it otherwise would, with Salisir excelling in violence and failing miserably in subservience. The Tetrarch commanded the lives of its members. Every member but one.

The fateful day finally came when Salisir crossed his bloodline. He took his final oaths, slit his forearm, and gave up any formal rights to himself. He did this only so he might have his chance at a Daemon rumored to be ravaging the Great Wastes. The Tetrarch only accepted him for this shared purpose.

The day finally came when Salisir was to cross the Highridge Mountains. They gave him a small army. He refused more than a squadron. They commanded him to take the Cindron Pass. Salisir took an unmarked trail through the mountains.

There’s not much known about Salisir’s first mission as a Tetrarch. What is known is that he is the only man of the forty in his squad to have returned. The Daemon he sought had been little more than a rumor, but whatever it was he found had somehow been darker in nature. Brin Salisir returned alive, but changed for the worse.

It was that change that inevitably led to his exile, and his exile that eventually led to my own.

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Entry 28 – Day 144

Entry 28 – Day 144

Bolton is healthy enough to move on tomorrow, so we will strike camp and go. He refuses to speak of the illness that laid him out. In fact, he remains quite subdued.

Bantish has given us a great deal to work with, and even a destination: Graylag. He says it was the capital of this region, and a center of trade. It was where Salisir first made a name for himself, and if we are to find any clues of his whereabouts, it will be there.

Bantish seems certain that Salisir died of a fever in the jungle not far from Graylag. He told us to find a man by the name of Prestorn. They are old friends, and he should be inclined to help us. If anyone can point us to Salisir’s grave, Prestorn should be able to.

All that remains of the city, as with any in this failed state, are ruins. There are a few standing buildings, but to his knowledge they are all inhabited by the bandits that ravage the area. They will make our lives difficult, Bantish says, but they can be dealt with. They are quite partial to silver, he says.


I wonder if it would be wiser to make a statement early though. I suppose word of what we’ve done here may spread, but seeing how isolated individual groups are I doubt anyone will ever know. If we kill this group of bandits, however, perhaps we will earn a reputation that will keep others at bay in the future.

Bantish says they raid and pillage without warning, killing and taking what they want on a whim. The people under attack simply flee into the jungle and hide. The only reason they haven’t come this far lately has been the Mentalists’ roving beasts. In some horrible irony we have left these people exposed to older threats.


They will have to fend for themselves. At least they have Bantish to watch over them. I remain uncertain of what expressions he has mastered, but I have seen how magic flows through him.

He gave us a very old map, one that shows the road to Graylag where it once ran and the posts that dotted the way along it. I get the sense that “road” was a generous term back when this map was accurate. Today I’m sure we will be lucky to find a path to walk along.

These people are so backwards. They leave their food exposed to the elements when they prepare it, and cook with open fires where their children play. I have seen a number of the poor wretches with deforming scars and twisted limbs caused by falls into these fires. What foolishness.

The women have no modesty whatsoever in how they dress, save that they will not expose their elbows. Somehow elbows are the most sensual part of a woman’s body to these people. Even if they walk around completely topless, they will cover their elbows with strips of cloth and beads.

I won’t even pretend to understand the Nantese.


All that matters to me is that they have given us our direction and our next goal. We will strike out for Graylag tomorrow. Bantish says we can make it within two weeks if all goes well. But he says we must beware the KoraKora. They are some tribe that has dispersed throughout the region, rejected by the rest for their “unsavory practices.”

I don’t know what that means, but he urges us to avoid them at all cost. They are marked with yellow lines along their faces and over shaved heads. While many in the Nanten wear the bones of animals in their noses and ears, he says they wear the bones of humans.

We will certainly do our best to avoid them. I would rather not discover what unsavory practices would separate any group from the rest of these savages. It must be obscene in the extreme.

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